Dino hunt

Dinosaur Valley State Park
This weekend, we went hunting for dinosaurs.  We waded through a creek bed to find the footprints and find them we did, after a few hours sweating buckets under the blazing sun.  I feel like the entire month of August was like that; hunting for dinosaurs - looking for something huge and nonexistent today - but instead coming up short.

Not much happened during the month of August.  It was hot and still and quiet.  I’m still attempting to put words to that feeling of what is missing from the day-to-day.  Not a person or a thing, it’s more something(s) momentous and exciting (maybe even a little scary) instead of the quiet calmness.  It has been difficult for me to handle the quiet calmness, of things falling more or less in order and as planned.  My brain leaps in circles and loops, trying to spin itself into different things to do.  My hands will pick up things at random, and cohesive ideas seem to come in spurts.  I’ve been trying not to fight myself about it and sometimes winning and other times losing.  Embarrassingly enough, it brings me to tears of frustration more often than I’d like to admit.  I’m more and more convinced that these are the struggles of adulthood, starting to feel comfortable in your own skin but also trying to grow into a better one as well.  I suppose it fits the old adage - if it’s not hard, it’s not worth doing.  Is that what aging is?


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  1. Yes. Then after awhile, you will get used to the struggle. Then mid-life crisis will occur....:D

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  2. I think being frustrated about a lack of drama is a really good problem to have. I could use some tips on how you got there. I'm not sure the whole adulting thing ever makes sense, though.

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  3. When things are too quiet and too calm, I get a little too nervous. Sometimes down time is what we need. Enjoy it because there's always an adventure or a horror story lurking around the corner.

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  4. What? I'm friends with a dinosaur tracker?! That's so awesome . . .

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  5. As much as my small boys would go crazy about seeing a real-life dinosaur track, I think I would rather have a root canal than try to do anything active in the Texas heat. It seems I'm very suited to life on the U.S.-Canadian border, and definitely not the U.S.-Mexico border. At least temperature-wise.

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  6. Is that what aging is... Good question. Some things get easier when you get older, like not giving a flying you know what if some people think you're weird. But most things get harder, yeah. Like staying in top shape.

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  7. I'm so feeling this right now. It's prompting me to write more, which is definitely putting me in this great creative space. Not always a happy space, but a creative one!

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  8. Dino hunting is so cool--in theory and practice, unlike so many things that are only cool in theory.
    I think I don't know how to live without something causing me stress, worry or aggravation. Does that mean I am blessed or cursed???

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  9. Oh how I love this summary of the month of August

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